Last friday

Saya sisir rambut ke depan and cut it off. That was last week. 

Cuba simpan rambut panjang for almost 1 year, satu peperangan dalam diri yang amat dahsyat. Yang mengenali saya, akan tahu, i loved rambut pendek. When i'm stressed with all the things happened in my life, i'll cut my hair. But, this time, ibu betul2 tak bagi. Arwah ayah dulu pun sebenarnya tak bagi, but i refused. Well, sebenarnya, i really3 missed my ayah :(

Last friday, my lecturer asked me, did i called my dad? before the presentation day? erm. saya tersentak. "ayah?"  i don't have father.(monolog dalam hati) then i answered him, "emak".. "yes i did"

erm.that moment makes me realised that, sometimes i forgot about him. life changes and i need to move on. but, actually dad is the one who really2 inspired me in kerja-kerja daawah. ayah sgt bg semangat even he's not around anymore. that's why, when thinking about 'someone' that i meet in my life, makes me reminds of ayah, as ibu always say, "semoga dia jadi pengganti ayah". 

But when ibu talked about ayah, i'll just listening and couldn't respond to her. sebak agaknya. Then ibu mcm speak to herself.(maaf ibu) I know her soooo much. she's very strong. seorang ibu yg sgt kuat. Just imagine, i never see her tears. But me?emh..

Itulah kekuatan ibu, dan semangat ayah yang aku pelajari.

 Dan,

aku, harus juga kuat seperti mereka :)

inshaAllah

Ya Allah, perkenankan doa kedua ibu bapa ku.

Al-fatihah buat ayah,

Rusli bin Harun